I turned 7 months pregnant today….Where has the time gone?? LOL I’m feeling really good, though, although moving a little slower these days. And turning over in bed?? HA. 🙂
I love feeling Ohene moving! I forget how awesome that sensation is, and how interactive it seems to be at this stage–I push him, he pushes back. Amazing!
I’m beginning to feel to feel a little apprehensive about having a newborn all over again. I think back to the past 38 months of parenthood, and damn, it takes a lot to even get to age 3–sleepless nights, pumping sessions, having a baby attached to your boob constantly, and the list goes on. These are all things I loved with Kwabena, and I am sure I will love them with Ohene. But it seems like a whole other world compared to independent life with a 3-year-old who can, and usually does, take care of himself (e.g. brushing his teeth, getting dressed, feeding himself, etc.). I just worry if I am “up” for reliving it all over again. I’m sure I will be, but I’m sure you can see my slight anxiety.
I’m also a little nervous about delivery: another vaginal delivery….? Or a scheduled c-section? With Kwabena, I was able to delivery naturally, no pain meds at all. I know that I can do that again. However, I worry about another bad tear. I worry about having shitting problems for the rest of my adult life. I worry about the fact that if pelvic floor issues are seldom now, they will present themselves later. I’ve considered hiring a doula to work with me. They could help with positions, and help control my labor to ease vaginal stretching, versus delivering too quickly or uncontrollably and tearing again.
Decisions, decisions…..
But yes, overall, I’m ecstatic about the baby, and am so thankful for this opportunity to bring another life into this world! And what fun it will be to be able to share this experience with Kwasi, and especially Kwabena! 🙂
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