I am 12 pounds over my pre-pregnancy weight.
Today I realized for the first time that I have been battling the same extra pounds of baby weight for 3 years……3 YEARS!
My revelation today was, why in the hell am I still comparing myself to 3 years ago, to a time when I was 3 years younger, hadn’t yet gone through the transitional period called HAVING A BABY, and had a faster metabolism?? Ten years from now will I be 40 years old still claiming to be “X” pounds over my pre-pregnancy weight? How ridiculous.
I started out at 153 lbs, pre-pregnancy…….gained 60 lbs…..(thanks, Krispee Kremes)……topped the scale at 212 lbs (OMG)……..lost 12 pounds immediately after delivery…….and sweated my ass off to drop an additional 30 pounds…………….landing at a stubborn 160 lbs.
I have gained about 5 pounds in the last year and a half, regardless of my weight-bearing exercises, miles of pounding the treadmill and elliptical trainer, or push-ups.
And here I am, 3 years later, unable to let go of what I used to be, instead of appreciating what I am.
I am a healthy, (still) young, happily married mom to a beautiful toddler.
I have decided to focus on exercising to be healthy, not a size 8.
Eat to live and savor, not stuff myself.
How my body takes up space in this universe, and its gravitational pull, should be the least of my concerns.
Time to move on (or, at least, try to!)
GOOD FOR YOU! You are beautiful and look great. That is all that matters. Not a scale or pant size!
You’re right, Tamra! It’s just so hard to let go of that, which is why I have been holding onto my “slim” jeans.
Tonight I enjoyed some yummy sweet home-made chocolate covered strawberries, and didn’t feel one once of guilt, though 🙂